At the moment, my medicine isn’t working as well as it should be working all because of one of them decided to be an asshole. It has gotten to the point where I had to leave my Paranormal Investigating team. I fucking hate that I had to do that. I felt like I belonged there and then… issues.
I was hallucinating and hearing things which turns out it was a combination of forgetting to take NAC (it repairs neurons) and staying up late for investigations. On top of that I am struggling with trying not to cut and not relapse into being anorexic. Also I am rapid cycling and by rapid I mean every five minutes it’s a new emotion. It’s so much fun.
I want to go back to the team but I don’t know. Part of me says that they are better off without me and the other says they seemed happy to have you there.
I feel like shit without my group and really stupid that I wouldn’t have left if I had known about my NAC.